Sorry I have not written in a while

Hi Baby,

Sorry I have not written in a while.  You know how busy I have been.  You have the best view in th house so you know that we are still running 90 miles an hour in 10 different directions.  You also know that every night before I close my eyes, I think of you and send my love your way.  You also know that every time I hug or kiss on your sisters, I am thinking about you because you taught me to not take them for granted and to love them unconditionally and without reservation.  I never forget to tell them that I love them.

Did you just see your sister Emily walk in here to my office with her face all made up with black lipstick, eyeshadow and blush.  I even believe she crimped her hair.  I bet you are laughing  right now thinking how weird she is.  I know I am.  WOW!    She just walked into the livingroom.  Yeah, I know  you heard your dad's reaction.  Bless his heart, he does not know what to do with this house full of females. 

Emily is just experimenting, trying to figure out who she is.  Hey, do me a favor and inspire her to be less  radical.

Are you getting a kick out of watching your little sister pull Emily's hair like you used to? Emily complains about it, but I know she is loving it.  Emily misses you so much.  Holland has given Emily a renewed outlook on life.  Holland is helping to heal the wounds left from your death.  Thank you for sending her to us.

Well baby, I know this is not much, but I am really tired.  I have to get up early in the morning and get Emily ready for her last Volleyball game.  PawPaw Gus is getting ready to turn 80 at the end of this month.  Keep an eye on him too.  I know he misses you more than he will ever admit.  What is it with the men in this family?  They don't want to show any weakness.  They feel that if they allow themselves to greive, it is a sign of weakness.  But I see it completely different.  I think that a man's ability to greive is a sign of strength.  Your dad needs to do some emotional weight lifting.  He just has to find the right spotter - see what you can do to help him  out little man.

I love you!

Mommy